I happen to have a test coming up this Saturday. Pharmacology. 8 chapters. And I haven't even started. All I seem to be thinking about is Mom's arrival, and how she will decide to hurt me this time around.
I want her to look at me and feel happy, at least this one time. She worries too much, and stops eating. Why she has to make everything about herself, I don't know. She decided to stop eating sweets because I was putting on weight. Does she think she can guilt me or blackmail me into losing weight? It only makes me feel more like crap. I wish she'd stop doing stuff like that. I don't need more negative energy in my life.
I'm going on a diet. Starting today. The lines that have repeated themselves throughout the course of my life, every single day. Here's to hoping the plan works out. Cheers.
(I've added a BMI tracker to the blog somewhere on the right.)
I want her to look at me and feel happy, at least this one time. She worries too much, and stops eating. Why she has to make everything about herself, I don't know. She decided to stop eating sweets because I was putting on weight. Does she think she can guilt me or blackmail me into losing weight? It only makes me feel more like crap. I wish she'd stop doing stuff like that. I don't need more negative energy in my life.
I'm going on a diet. Starting today. The lines that have repeated themselves throughout the course of my life, every single day. Here's to hoping the plan works out. Cheers.
(I've added a BMI tracker to the blog somewhere on the right.)
do u really need to diet tho?
ReplyDeleteor is it psychological?
my mum says i need to loose weight but idk tbh i lost loads already i was uk size 20 now i am 16 i like my size my mum says i am too big n should be a uk size 10 so i will look like a skinny model i don't think she knows what shes talking about i cant be arsed.....i think its odd she tells me that tho that im too big and should loose weight cos she suffered from anorexia and bulimia for many years...i would think that she wouldn't want me to have weight issues?????